Starting Weight: 318.2 lbs.
Weight Last Week: 309 lbs.
Current Weight: 305.4 lbs.
Weekly Change: –3.6 lbs.
Total Weight Lost: 12.8 lbs.
I lost 3.6 pounds this week! I am currently only 3.4 pounds away from hitting my first big goal! Once my weight is down to 302 pounds, I’ll have officially lost 5% of my body fat! Once I achieve that goal, I can move on to bigger and better things–aka losing another 15 pounds so that I can hit my 10% goal!
I was somewhat unsure what my weight loss would look like today because I sort of came out of the Weight Watchers bubble this week. The week before last–the first week I started the program–I ate every single meal at home and didn’t consume anything drink-wise except for water. During that first week, I cut out coffee and tea, juice, and alcohol. I didn’t go out with any of my friends, and I avoided all fast food joints and other types of restaurants. Over this past week, that changed a bit–hence why I said that I came out of the Weight Watchers “bubble.”
I dropped by Weight Watchers to chat with my leader sans-meeting time this past week, and she said something to me during that chat that made me rethink my strategy a bit. She said, “If you are doing something now that you can’t do forever, then don’t do it.” Weight Watchers isn’t a diet–it’s a lifestyle. Weight Watchers teaches you how to eat, and if you don’t plan on using the tools and skills forever, then you are more than likely going to gain back every single pound you lose.
It’s for this reason I wasn’t so rigid with myself this past week. I am not going to give up coffee, tea, juice, and alcohol forever, nor am I going to vow never to visit a restaurant again. That’s not how I want to live my life. I have mentioned before that I have binge eating disorder, and that’s always going to be a problem for me, I think. I have to be very, very careful about not only what I eat, but how much I eat. But, with that said, I still don’t want to give up everything! I just want to learn to control myself and eat in moderation. I want to feel okay going out to eat at a restaurant or even going to a fast food joint. I haven’t binged since starting the Weight Watchers program–it’s taken a lot of self-discipline, but I’ve managed to avoid overdoing it with food, even when I’ve had compulsions. I am trying so, so hard to make better choices.
I missed my coffee desperately this week, though, so I took a risk and I stopped at Starbucks twice. I focused not on the fact that I was going out, but rather simply on the idea of making better choices. Instead of getting one of my go-to drinks, I ordered a non-fat, sugar free latte both times. I also met one of my friends at Taco Bell for lunch one day this past week. Instead of crazy overdoing it, again I made a much better, different choice. I ordered two shredded chicken tacos that day, which ended up costing me 4 points each–not bad considering the fact that I have 50 points to use up each day.
So, overall, this past week was about finding a balance. It was about learning to make better choices–choices that are going to let me be “normal” yet still healthy. And, lo and behold, that balancing act paid off! 3.6 pounds isn’t a bad loss. I feel pretty proud of myself.
Today, as I begin my new week, my focus is going to be entirely on exercise. I have to make myself get moving in that department–literally. Eating well is only half of it–exercise is going to be a big part of what ultimately helps me get to the finish line and lose the weight I want to lose. This week, my goal is to sweat!
To all those reading, thank you for your support and your kind thoughts and words. Kindness means so, so much to me. I hope each of you has a wonderful, healthy, and productive week! May we all continue to lose the weight that’s holding us down!