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Starting Weight: 318.2 lbs.
Weight Last Week: 258 lbs.
Current Weight: 256 lbs.
Weekly Change: –2 lbs.
Total Weight Lost: –62.2 lbs.

Hello, friends!

I am in a WONDERFUL mood this evening!

This afternoon, I did the oral defense of my honors thesis (the defense that I wore the dress to), and I am thrilled to be able to tell you that I was awarded Summa Cum Laude! I honestly can’t believe it. I was expecting Magna Cum Laude (at best), but definitely not Summa Cum Laude.

I wore that dress that I bought that I thought I only “sort of” liked, and you know what? I think I rocked it. Really! Thanks to Alison’s suggestion, I bought a slip to wear underneath it, and that worked wonders in regards to smoothing things out. It was pouring rain here (seriously pouring—we had flash flooding in some areas), so I threw on a pair of white leggings underneath, too, and that helped, as well. It’s amazing what a little extra support can do. I was not self-conscious about my body at all. I went in there with confidence, and I spoke my piece, and, obviously, the panel was impressed!

After I left the defense, I started thinking about who I was 62.2 lbs. ago. Would I have felt confident enough to get up there and really speak? Would I have focused on the panel and what I was doing, or would I have been tugging at my clothes and wiggling around and feeling so self-conscious about my body? Would I have been as focused and well articulated?

I can’t answer any of those questions for sure, but I can certainly tell you what I think.

I think the answer to all of the above would be a resounding NO.

62.2 lbs. ago, I made it a point to blend in to my surroundings like nobody’s business. I was the girl that only spoke when spoken to. I was the girl with constantly downward cast eyes. I was the girl who was constantly tugging at her clothes, wiggling around, trying—in vain—to appear to be much thinner than she was.

62.2 lbs. ago, I would never have worn a dress to something as important as this, because it would have made me so uncomfortable. I never would have been able to confidently stand up and talk about myself and my interests and my work so freely and openly without fear or self-doubt.

It felt so good.

And it also opened my eyes to something: I was so disappointed in myself before, but I didn’t really realize it at the time. My previous actions spoke so loudly though, didn’t they?

It’s funny what you notice when you really make an effort to clean up your life.

Before I went to my college campus today for the defense, I did make it in to Weight Watchers this morning.

Honestly, I was not looking forward to facing the scale.

The quality of my food this week was not very good. Last Friday, I went to IHOP and ordered a 3-piece plate of bananas foster french toast. It was 26PP. I also had a cup of grits (2pp), and I used about 2Tbsp. of real butter (6pp) between the french toast and the grits. So, yes, I did have a 34pp dinner.

And, believe it or not, I actually planned for that (somewhat). I’d been craving that meal for weeks, so I decided to just go ahead and order it. I thought, “I have an ‘extra’ 49pp every week that I hardly touch, so it’s OK to use them on french toast.”

So I did.

I get 42pp per day, and last Friday, I used 60pp.

I was OK with this. I ordered what I wanted, I tracked, and I was in control of the situation.

But, unfortunately, I ended up regretting it later.

See, that one decision sort of set the tone for my entire week. I started snacking more—eating more popcorn and Larabars and pop chips. And I started using more of my weeklies here and there.

I used more weeklies this past week than I have during the entire 8-month timespan I’ve been on Weight Watchers.

I used a total of 27 weeklies last week—more than half of them.

So, honestly, it’s a miracle that I lost 2 lbs.

On one hand, I’m somewhat disappointed because I still didn’t manage to shake the weight I mysteriously gained last week, but on the other hand, I know that after the way I ate this past week, I’m lucky to have lost at all.

So, it’s for this reason that I’ve decided to do an entire week of Simply Filling. I got all of the power foods I needed yesterday, and I’m excited to give my body a break from the processed junk I overindulged in this past week. My week is going to consist of good, wholesome food, and I’m going back to basics.

I ate super well today (and didn’t use any of my weeklies, which is unusual for a Friday!), but I did slip just a tiny bit and had a 2pp Weight Watchers ice cream bar to “celebrate” my Summa Cum Laude award. Other than that, though, it was all Simply Filling.

Hopefully this really helps me and I can finally lose some “new” weight next week!

I hope each of you had a very happy and productive week, and I wish you a wonderful upcoming week, too.

Eat well. Be well.



8 thoughts on “256.0

  1. It’s so fantastic to read about you coming out of your cocoon and being the woman you were meant to be! Your blog is so full of positive energy and success, regardless of what you’ve been eating in the last week, that I can’t help but be cheered up when I read it!

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    1. Thank you so much, Katrina!

      It means a lot to hear that from you! ❤

      I am glad that I can be of help in the cheering up department. I try to stay positive, but it's not always easy. As I've told you, what we're doing is HARD.

      But we will prevail! I just know it! 😀

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    1. Thank you so very much, Deborah! ❤

      I am the very first person in my ENTIRE family to graduate from college. My parents didn't go, and neither did any of my aunts, uncles, cousins, etc. I am the ONLY one. My parents were proud of me for just going to school and sticking with it—the Summa Cum Laude honor is just an added bonus for them.

      But yes, I do know that they are proud of me, and you had better believe that I am proud of myself, too! This was a big moment, for sure.

      It was so nice to not worry about my weight or anything else for the duration of my defense. I just said what I needed to say + didn't have to worry about whether or not they were judging me based on my size.

      It feels good to have these wonderful moments and memories. I don't really have any of those from high school, so this was an even bigger deal for me because of that. 😀

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  2. This is such a great post 😀 It makes me so happy to see you recognizing all of these positive things related to your weight loss. I am also so happy that you were awarded Summa Cum Laude! Congratulations ❤

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    1. Awe thanks, Brittany!

      I have good + bad days (as you know 😉 ) + this was definitely one of the good ones—one of the ones where it was easy to appreciate my weight loss!

      I hope you’re stopping to recognize the good things in your life, too, because you are doing SUCH a wonderful job with your weight loss and fitness! I am proud of you! ❤

      + Thank you for the congratulations! + For sending me good vibes beforehand! Your good ju-ju helped for sure! 😀

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  3. Congratulations on your loss, Rachael, but more importantly, on your defense!! That is an incredible accomplishment and I am so proud of you for getting up there and showing them the brave, beautiful, bad ass that you truly are! You’re still a true inspiration ♥

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    1. Thanks, Harley!

      I really + truly could not have done it without all of you! The support that I get from you guys makes me feel braver and stronger and more confidant than I normally am. You guys are helping to mold me into this new, better, healthier, + happier Rachael that I’m becoming! 😀

      You inspire me too, Harley! Never forget that! ❤

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