Starting Weight: 318.2 lbs.
Weight at Last Post: 238 lbs.
Current Weight: 241.2 lbs.
Weekly Change: +3.2 lbs.
Total Weight Lost: 77 lbs.
Hello, my dear friends.
Pour yourself a cuppa tea and pull up a chair; let’s chat!
As is becoming my new mantra these days, I apologize for the tremendously late posting! Things are busy, busy, busy. This past weekend I took a couple of final exams, participated in my highly-anticipated 5K race, and, you know… tried to squeeze in some time for normal, every-day things like sleep!
It’s been a wild ride.
So far this week, I’ve taken another couple of exams, written (or, I should say am in the midst of writing) the very last research paper of my undergraduate career, and spent tons of time prepping for my college graduation that’s this coming Saturday!
It’s a very exciting time, for sure, but it’s also been very, very stressful, and I’m feeling out of sorts.
I want to delve a bit more into that in just a minute, but let’s enjoy some photos from the 5K, yeah? I prefer to get a little silly before getting serious! 🙂
I finished the race in 57 minutes and 58 seconds, putting me in 466th place overall and 65th place in my age division.
And let me tell you what—I worked for that! It was harder than I expected it to be (even with my prior practice!), and I was kicking myself the entire time because I hated it that much!
Walking/running is not my cuppa tea. I have written to you all several times and lamented about the fact that I find walking like this to be a total chore; I get zero enjoyment out of it.
So you’re probably thinking to yourself… why do the race then?
Well… several reasons.
The first reason being that someone I really have a lot of respect and admiration for offered to do it with me, and I’m not the type of person to turn down someone with good intentions.
If you need my help on your journey to better health—be it you need a tracking accountability buddy, a 24/hour help-please-talk-me-off-the-ledge-before-I-eat-an-entire-cake chatline, someone to exercise with, or even just someone to converse with about the difficulties of this process, I’m there for you.
Conversely, if you are willing to dedicate your precious time and energy on me and offer to do something for me or with me that’s going to be beneficial to my health journey, I’m there, in a heartbeat, as a willing participant, too.
And also… I wanted to do this just so that I could say that I had. Doing some sort of organized race had never been a dream of mine, but once the offer was out on the table, I found myself thinking it’d be something cool to check off my bucket list—that it’d be another accomplishment that I could add to my growing list of things I’ve done whilst trying to lose weight and better my health. I didn’t participate thinking that one day I’d be running marathons, because that has never, ever been something I’ve even remotely wanted to do… I did it so that I’d have a nice story to tell someday—so that when someone brought up their fitness adventures, I’d have a cool thing to contribute to the conversation, too.
Because here’s the thing: I have come to the conclusion that people that run for “fun” and that like to spend their free time running marathons on the weekends are absolutely, positively crazy.
Dancing is fun. Yoga is fun. Cycling is fun. Swimming is fun. Running? Walking forever and ever and ever with no real purpose? Nope. Nope. Nope.
But you know what? Regardless, I’m proud of myself, and I’m proud of my friends. It’s a really big deal for a group of people who’ve lost a significant amount of weight (I’m talking well over 400 lbs. combined between the six of us) to get out there and do something like this.
Did I enjoy the physical part of this experience? No. But I enjoyed the rest of it, without a doubt. I enjoyed spending time with this group of people, and I enjoyed the camaraderie that was so evident as we cheered each other on and encouraged each other to be our best selves. I enjoyed the feeling of accomplishment that this opportunity afforded me, and I enjoyed knowing that the girl who had to drop out of “traditional” college a couple of years ago because she was too fat to walk across campus was long, long gone.
I enjoyed all of that so much that when one of the girls said “let’s sign up for the other four races in the series” I agreed to it, even though walking/running isn’t my cuppa tea.
Our next race is on January 17th.
Now, back to the whole “I’m feeling out of sorts” thing.
My weight loss has been an absolute hot mess for several months now, and I think you’re all well aware of that.
Last Friday, Stephanie, my Weight Watchers leader, informed me that I’ve essentially been maintaing my weight for the past four months; I’ve just been gaining and losing the same couple of pounds since August.
And I know exactly what I’m doing wrong.
I’ve gone back to eating crappy, boxed, processed food, fast food, and every piece of trigger food I can get my hands on.
The only difference between this me and the old 320-lb. me is that I’ve learned portion control (to some extent) and I’ve learned how to make weight (drink gallons of water, cups and cups of hot green tea with lemon, and eat as little as possible on Thursdays).
I am doing terrible things, and I know it.
The question is… how do I stop this?
Well, Weight Watchers is going to step in and stop it for me, apparently. As my fellow members know, the company just launched a brand new program this past Sunday that’s called “Beyond the Scale,” and it’s a holistic-based approach to weight loss that requires you to eat more protein, healthy fats, and natural sugars and little to no added sugar or saturated fats.
So, basically, Weight Watchers is on to my game… I can no longer drink my fat-free coffees that have 20g. of added sugar for a measly 3p+ … I have to start making serious diet changes (again) and get rid of the sugar.
It’s time to detox.
I am extremely, extremely apprehensive about the new program, but it’s time to stop whining and complaining and get back on the road to good health, so SmartPoints, here I come!
No more plateauing. No more maintaining.
I’m going to the grocery store this week to stock up on healthy food.
I’ve got 77 lbs. left to lose, and it’s high time I get cracking!
I’ll be back on Friday with an updated weigh-in and more information about my customized SmartPoints plan.
I hope you’re all having a wonderful week.
Eat well. Be well.